Thursday, 12 December 2013

I am...



Last night
I bled
as I walked
amidst
the shards
of
broken hopes
and
shattered dreams
strewn all about.

I am
the broken hope
the shattered dream
the violated right
the misty eye
the muffled voice.

I am
the disrobed Draupadi.
She, too, was disrobed
in a court
by the defenders of faith.

They will now
judge
ridicule
assess
opine
incriminate
what?
My BEING!

I am
nature
as natural
as the rain
that kisses the earth.
What gender is the rain?
Or the earth?
Did you ask?

Saturday, 7 December 2013

The Beast Within...



The hideous incidents that have surfaced in the recent past have, apart from supplying the desperately needed fodder to keep the 24X7 media up and running, forced us to re-examine and re-assess, our estimation of the importance of morality and education in particular, and, our idea of civilisation in general. 

Talwars, a dentist couple, Mr. Tejpal, an editor-in-chief of an eminent national magazine, Justice Ganguly, head of the Human rights commission (and Asharam Bapu, a so-called God-man): people from different walks of life with only one thing common—besides their renown, respectability, and competence in their respective fields— their alleged involvement in some of the basest crimes known to man.

In all fairness, almost all the cases are sub judice, and therefore it’d be a little too early to pass a judgement on any of these matters; my point, however, of writing this is not to pillory any of these individuals. I think the media have done their job well to that end. One of my intentions of penning this piece is to actually reflect on this rather entrenched propensity of ours to pass judgements at others so impetuously. 

All of these are people belong to the upper crust of humanity in terms of their financial and social standing. These are people in whom hundreds of people have in the past reposed their faith. They are doctors, top-notch journalists, former judges, and (self-claimed) paragons of all that is holy. We look up to them, or their likes, in our daily lives. We seek solace in their counsel in times of physical or emotional distress. Some of us have taken their words as final words on matters secular or divine. And yet, now we have been forced to come face to face with a nightmarish dimension of their personalities.

I should reiterate that I refer to these people only as prototypes of a larger problem. As I said, since most of the cases are sub judice one should refrain from jumping to conclusions too soon. However, that caution does not omit the possibility of their, or people of their stature, having perpetrated the alleged crimes. There are far too many examples in the history to show that. And that to my mind is the larger tragedy. 

That infallibles exist only in mythology (do they? More on that soon) is an unsettling thought. What perturbs us more when we read/hear such news? Is it the occurrences/presence of such malice in our society? Or that in these cases in particular, the malice can be traced to people who themselves were apparently torch-bearers of humanity and crusaders of human-rights, quite literally in one case. I think it’s the latter which is more unhinging and comes as a sort of a blow. 

Believe it or not we have a tendency to push and displace depravity to the margins, away from the seemingly safe cocoons we’ve spun about ourselves. We imagine knaves and rogues to come from the other class, community, caste, country even. That the educated, civilised, and righteous mind can also breed the basest of thoughts comes as such a shock to us.

But as the recent events have shown, we seem to place undue importance in our idea of education, morality, urbanity;  for the aforesaid are assumed to be the foundation of the edifice of civilisation. And these incidents have once again showed us how that foundation is shaky.    

Is it, then, only a complacent illusion that civilisation has managed to temper and curtail the beast that lurks within each of one of us? Or is this behaviour only human and a proof of our helplessness and impotence to fight that beastly instinct despite being conditioned and trained to do so?

No, I am not for a moment condoning what these people have allegedly done. They must be tried lawfully and must face the consequences of their actions. My concern is not to vilify, justify or condone their actions. My concern here is more selfish than that. 

Imagine these people in their day to day lives. How many times must have Mrs Talwar winced when she must have seen some gory visuals of a murdered body on her television screen or in a newspaper report, and must have pitied the unknown victim. The Supreme Court judge in question must have censured so many people who must have transgressed legally and socially. The said God-man must delivered so many sermons warning his followers against the sins he himself has allegedly committed. The editor must have churned out so many stories lashing out against people who must be guilty of committing crimes similar to the one he himself is alleged (and admitted) to have done.

Will it be wise and correct to write off all of their above stated behaviour as phony and contrived? Is it is safe to assume that none of their pity, censure, sermons, indignation had even a whiff of genuineness?  I doubt it.

And this doubt haunts me. Doesn’t that mean that we who fume and fret over such matters, and take not even a moment’s time to express our vexation through social-media, are not exempt from such follies? We are as vulnerable to that beastly side of us overpowering all the mental conditioning, and drawing out from within us the kind of behaviour we ourselves would have never imagined.

One moment of indiscretion induced by agents external (say, alcohol) or internal (say, anger, lust, or greed) is all it may take to eject me from the high horse of civility, and make me stand in line with people whom I was chastising and fuming over minutes, days or months ago; and I may end up being the object of others vexation and ridicule. But, again, are these ‘others’ immune to the malice that they are fuming over is my larger concern, a deep-seated fear more so. Can a person be defined in totality by a vice he/she gives into or a virtue he/she upholds?


“Give me that man,
That is not passion's slave, and I will wear him
In my heart's core, ay, in my heart of heart.”
~ Hamlet  (3.2)